My mum, brother and myself was being locked out
of the house for approximately 3 hours
while my dad was sound asleep in the comfort of his room.

Seriously, it's ridiculous. The continuous ringing of phone and the banging of door and window didn't wake him up at all. I was so afraid people will think I'm a burglar or even call the police or what. Anyway, we were so loud that even my neighbour had to come out to check what's going on. Can you imagine!

We ended so clueless that we decided on getting the locksmith to do the job and hell they took a good 2 hours to open the stupid gate. How professional.

So upon getting in, obviously the first thing would be to check on my dad. So what we found out was that his door was wide open with the air-con blowing! We woke him up and claimed he didn't locking the door, which obviously wasn't true because that would have save all the trouble 3 hours ago. To make things worse, he can't even remember bathing and turning the air-con on. Wonder what's with him before he went to bed. Now my mum is worrying about him being senile when he gets older.

It's just the first week of school and I'm already worn out. With all the things going on, I haven't been catching much sleep actually. I can practically sleep everywhere from lecture halls, canteens, buses, and even to restaurants. Well, school isn't that bad after all and I've yet to meet my new class since there isn't any tutorials for the first week. I'm just hoping that I'll be lucky enough to get good project mates. I'll cross my fingers.

Anyway, SSM wasn't that hellish after all. It's just lots of yelling and reprimanding followed by carrying of bricks and 500ml water bottles. After which we were rewarded with aching of back, arms and legs, and not forgetting the bruise on our shoulder. But honestly, the lecturers are really interesting and fun at times. So it's really not that bad.

Guess, I'm gonna sleep soon, probably after I'm done with my tutorial. My eyes are hurting me even without me contact lens on and that's bad cos it means I'll need to replenish my sleep. Oh well, that's all for now. Bye.

Seeing how an individual changes so drastically doesn't surprise me, given the environment he/she is in. Being easily influence should be one big sin! It changes everything and can even destroy one's future. How sad can this be. What's more it's happening on someone you know. It's even more saddening to know there's nothing I can do to rectify it.

I've lost count of the number of people telling me about that individual but still I chose to remain neutral and keep an eye closed. You see, I choose to believe that whatever that individual does is not within my control and I ought not to since it's the kind of life that individual wants. So long as things between us remain intact, other issues won't matter. But I'm really wrong because I realised we're no longer able to communicate like how we always do. All the different things that we encounter, our different lifestyle and even our difference in the way we speak lead to such an outcome. Honestly, some actions really disgust me. It makes me wonder why I've someone like this. Viewing those pictures in the afternoon was pretty bad already but now that I've seen more, I'm totally loss for words. Don't people have their own principles, pride, dignity whatsoever. I mean seriously, by portraying oneself this way, it'll leave down a bad impression on others. Bad impression like what? You figure that. Oh well, all I can say right now is that I've totally given up on it already.

Bottom Line : It will still stay but I'll keep it really simple.

I'm done with dying my hair black. It's really black, jet black. But doesn't matter, just 1 semester and everything will be over for good. School's commencing tomorrow and with a new class, that means we've to start all the introduction all over again. I really hate doing this. It's like I've to be overly friendly and nice to everyone because who knows they might end up being my project mates. It's as good as putting on a fake front. Still, I'm more or less prepared for school now. Hurry start, hurry end, hurry get over it and graduate with good grades to get into the same uni with Gerald! That's my motivation.

I had bread for my meals today - Subway & BK. But it's alright, Subway isn't fattening. Besides, I skipped the Subway cookies, and have my Yogurt! Like finally! Chicken rice soon yea! Let's hope it's possible.

Alright I'm off to prepare for school though I only have lecture at 5pm - 6pm. Lol. Short day but this is only for week 1. So yup. Shall blog again really soon.

Honestly, I think displaying your mood
doesn't help much
because there's no way at all
the other party can interpret it
and know what's going on inside your hidden self.
So unless you are prepared to speak your mind,
things won't take a better turn.
Besides, when things have resolved,
the tranquility that set in
feels like as though you've given yourself some leeway
to be free from all those perturbing emotions.
In addition, it'll bring two people closer together.
Well, isn't that a win-win solution then?

As such, I've learnt to face all problems bravely
and not escape from it .

Yes, I've bathed. I've no idea why but I dread bathing and not forgetting brushing of teeth too. Wonder who invent all these and started making it a daily routine. I know, I know. It makes me sound like I'm dirty or whatever shit but seriously, sometimes when there's a chance to avoid it, I'll be more than happy to do so. Just like yesterday night, I skipped the brushing teeth step. Lol. However, that doesn't make me a dirty and unkempt individual because I jolly well know how it plays an important role in keeping you clean and fresh. Reality ar reality.


I'm having cravings for certain food again.

Yogurt from Yogurt Place (I'll be having it in a few hours time)
Chicken Rice at Katong (No plans)
Chicken Wings from Bedok 85 (No plans)
Java Chip From Starbucks (Probably in a few hours time too)

It's really quick how I can have cravings. I added Starbucks to my list just minutes ago while chatting with Mei Chin. Because apparently, her conversation window is a picture we took together at Starbucks, with me holding onto my coffee. That's how random. Lol.

Well well. I'm still waiting for my hair to dry before I hit the sack. That explains why I'm here blogging. Besides I reckon I won't be so free to blog as often when school starts. And and, that stupid GB is still taking his own sweet time to upload the pictures! Quick yoo.

Here's some random shots to end it off.

Well, she thinks I look like that alien on my shirt.

Yes, say no to JABS!
It's a relief.
According to the Chinese Medicine,
it's best to refrain from all sorts of seafood lest you get infectious.
But I had laksa for dinner over at Katong!
It's nice laa

Digressing.....

BTW, I've to dye my hair black before school starts next week. I realised my brown hair tone is rather visible even after bun-ing it up. Should I just buy cheap black dye to do it myself... because it seems kind of dumb to visit the salon just to dye the bottom part of my hair black.

Anyway, my timetable ain't good despite trying really HARD to make it look as appealing as possible. It's already the best I can do. You see, there are only 2 lecture groups for HTM modules and so there isn't much of a change I can make because it will clash with other modules that I have. Plus, I've to put into consideration that there's CYA (which I'll most likely be applying for Thursday duty because that's the only day Mei Chin and I end class early). That means, I'll end school at 5-6pm everyday and exceptionally late during the day when there's CYA. Man, this is by the the worse time table I've gotten.

My initial time table. I think most of my friends' time table look somewhat like mine too. But seriously, the hours of break we have. A little too much eh?

Some slight changes that will make my Thursday life slacker. But if I were to do so, I won't be in the same french tutorial with Charyl. Besides, that means I've lessons early every single day!

Alternatively, I can make my Wednesday less pack and have my CYA on this respective day. BUT that will mean I won't be able to be on the same day as Mei Chin.

This is just a time table with all the available slots for every lectures if ever I'll need to crash. See I'm always prepared!

Solutions:

1) Ditch kiddy Mei Chin to be with Charyl.

2) Abundant tiny Charyl for Mei Chin.

3) Be a nice friend by accompanying them both and a nice student by giving less job to lectures.

Just by glancing at it, the first 2 ain't good because they are both my all-time buddy and I wanna have more opportunity to meet the both of them especially when we're all of different class now. This is so annoying!! I guess at the end of the day, if I wanna have the best of both worlds, I'll just stick to my initally cork up time-table.

Come to realise, this is the first time I'm sacrificing my time just to be with friends. My previous semester wasn't anything like that at all. I changed my tutorials and lectures regardless of whether I'm with my friends or when I'm alone. By doing so, I'll have a better time table at my own convenience. Well, at that time, we had all the time with the class so one day of absence didn't even bother the slightest part of me. However, things are different now. Little sacrifices like this can mean a whole big deal because I've learn that losing a friend, especially a really close one, can easily top the list to be one of the most heartbroken moments ever.

2H05!

That's my new class for Semester 2.1. Damn, I don't like being separated from everyone! We're scattered everywhere from 01 all the way to 13! So that's how the school is treating us? Awesome shit.

I was, at first, freaking tired after spending that little hours on Charyl's bed last night. So just when I was about to nap in the comfort of my own bed, Valerie called to deliver the message that our classes are out. Of course panicked right and gjnjnhgoengubjk!! It seriously woke me out of my reverie! Man, come on! What if I ended up in the same class with people that are... ... oh well. Nvm, at least now I know I have someone else from my class sharing the same fate as me. Future project mates yea xiang xiang? Lol!

Oh and another nhunijmoknuyuokqpkdsl issue that is freaking me out. I have to go for typhoid vaccination all becos of SSM. I'm afraid of needles la ='(

I swear SSM is really making life difficult for us even before we officially start! The uniform itself was retarded. Why bring a tailor to school when you're not gonna customized the uniform for us? I ended up with really huge and spacious top and bottom that needs to be altered! Oh my. Plus all the stuff that I got to get. Black watch, black court shoes, hair net, bobby pins, tons and tons of gel/wax/spray, red lip stick, stalkings, and the list goes on and on and on.

Alright, I'll have my time-table released in approximately 11 hrs. Shall see how it's like and decide on whether I'll need to change any time slots. Yes, I'm sleepy again. I'll be turning it real soon. Will be putting up the pictures of last night's. Stay tuned!

BBQ at Charyl's place by the pool side later at night. Lol, sounds romantic eh.
I'm so looking forward to it. Gimme food! Gimme fun!
It's probably gonna be the last stayover as 1H01 before a whole new school term starts again. With new faces circling round me, I'm defnitely gonna miss all the fun we had together as a whole.

Pre-school Stayover! Here we comes!

Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday ... ... What else can be better than long weekends like this.



And I think this looks cool! See I look like, the colour's nice, what else can be better than this too. Lol!

Well, had a very well spent Good Friday dining with my family because it was Daddy's birthday. It's been really ages since we all last sat together for dinner. So yup, it was rather heartwarming. My brother and I even went prawning since it was just nearby and hell, it was expensive - $20 per hour. So each prawn was $4. $4 because I caught 2, my brother caught 1, the other 1 was caught using hand and last was given by the owner. So a total of 5. $20/5 prawns = $4. Man, I'm treating you guys like kids. Lol. Well, I forgot about pictures when there's fun but yea the prawns are still chilling in the freezer.


Vin Diesel's muscles are so crazily huge that if you ever get to sleep with him on a king size bed, I think he'll take up 3/4 of the entire space.

And, Gerald and I caught Fast & Furious 4 after that before heading to my place for a stay over again. Since it was so late right and it's dumb to send me home and waste that midnight cab fare again back to his place. Besides, I like the Q&A session we had! Lol. Dark secrets being exposed! *Tsk Tsk*.

Anyway, the show was surprisingly interesting! Really. Gerald was still afraid that it might bore me. But hell no! Seriously, imagine being about to drive like them. Woohooo! There won't be anything like not being punctual or getting fined by Fatimah or Uncle Sam.

Anyway here's another entry full of visuals! I'm happy cos that means I don't have to write much. Plus, I'm super lazy to add captions now so use your imagination alright. The wilder the better! Lol!



































There are of course more of the uglier and unglam ones but I chose to protect at least that little bit of my image. You see, I'm after all a lady. People might get scared off just by seeing my pictures. So yup, you're not gonna see it!

Alright I shall put up the pictures before I head out again. Granny's Birthday first. The others will come later soon. Slow sia Lianghao.

Alright I'm back to update again! Honestly I've been wanting to update since Monday but the guys asked me to join them at viwawa so I got distracted and forgot all about updating and yesterday I've got to prepare and turn in early for work today. So here's a brief preview of what had taken place the past few days.


Saturday

Gerald came over for dinner, soccer and stayed over at my place. Yes, it's the first time he's staying over and just went I thought my conservative cum protective parents would give us hell out of a problem, I was proven wrong! They didn't even check on us even when we had the door shut. (We're keep the door closed because there's air-con okay!) So it's something good right? Yes, I think so!


Sunday

Granny's 80th birthday over at my place and as usual it was yet another big family gathering with over 30 people or more. Well, it's great to see how everyone have enjoyed themselves with all the jokes and laughter. Most importantly, Gerald was present too, though not for long because he got to get back to camp which is located all the way at Choa Chu Kang!


Monday was a boring day so let's just skip it. Moving on, we have...

Tuesday!

Being the typical hardworking me, I decided to pay a visit to Mei Chin who was on duty. It's been about half a month since I last did the commentary so you know, I'll tend to get a little nervous. Plus, I've to do all the ticketing myself. So to make it sound nice, it's a visit but actually it's to get familiarize with everything. Lol, kidding. So anyway, we had dinner cum bitching session together with the guys! Yes, we bitch and bitch and we bitch all day. I haven't been seeing them for quite sometime so of course, I got excited when it comes to pictures. We spammed till Lianghao's camera died off while his poor little phone went out of memory. Lol, but not to fret, we still have my phone!
And know what guys? Those panorama shots were not saved! So we lost all of those nice, cool shots! Damn!


Wednesday

My first as well as last day of the month at Duck Tour but I'm still in the midst of considering whether to continue taking up this job when school reopens. It offers really good pay! Though good pay, sometimes it gets pretty boring. Try speaking for 6 trips with each lasting approximately an hour. It may seem nothing but you see, you're going round the same route and describing about the same things for entirely 6 trips!

Well well, overall it's still pretty much alright with just a few blunders here and there at the start but towards the last few trips I'm proud to say I've done quite a good job with no stuttering, no nervousness, nothing! =D

Anyway, here I have, a little joke I encountered.

China Tourist: 请问这条是不是红色的线?
Me: 这不是. 你必于搭那条红色的巴士.

You got the joke? 那条红色的巴士. If you still didn't then I can't help you anymore. All I know was that China tourist had a really good laugh at me!


Alright, I intend to upload all the pictures here but once again I got distracted by viwawa. So pictures will be up real soon! Stay tuned!

Isn't it true when people say - "As expectation gets higher, the greater the disappointment when it flops"?


When your parents expect you to be filial and stay out of trouble, and you fail to do so, they'll be disappointed.
When teachers expect you to obtain good grades, and you fail to do so, they'll be disappointed.
When your friends expect you to know exactly how you should priortise your time accordingly, and you fail to do so, they'll be disappointed.
When your girlfriend/boyfriend expects you to do things the way it should be done, and you fail to do so, they'll be disappointed.
When you compare yourself with others, you'll expect things to be the same, and when it isn't, you'll feel like a total shit and yet again, get disappointed.


I remembered how a friend used to say, "I've done it before and know it's not at all nice feeling this way but you can't compare things. It isn't gonna be fair to anyone because everyone is different. Besides, what you already have, could be what others are longing for too." How true but it's difficult, for me at least. Guess I'm just halfway there, may be 3/4.

And thinking about it, it's impossible not to have any expectations at all. Without expectations, you'll not have goals, dreams, ambitions and everything that you have work doubly hard for. So you see, this world is complicated. You've got to know exactly when you should expect more and when you shouldn't. Now, I'm learning to take things lightly. Lightly so I won't be shaken so easily.


Conclusion: Expectations can be healthy only if don't get your hopes too high.

Yes, my brother's back.
That means the house will be livelier.
=)

Anyway, I've 2 items off my list.

I've finally cleared my room! Sparkling clean and it makes the air around me fresher somehow. It feels more like a room now. Hopefully it will stay neat and tidy for, let's say, a month. =)

Next up would be my wardrobe. I've cleared my unwanted clothes and it's less messy now though not up to my expectations. Guess I'll re-arrange my clothes according to colour? Yet to come up with a decision. Will think about it when I've nothing in mind.

So what I have now will be presents for 2 family members, probably tomorrow, as well as to prepare for my job. Alright, will be back to update more interesting stuff unlike now, mundane life cos I've been lazing around at home.

Do you always see yourself trying to accommodate people by changing or hiding your true self, your emotions as well as your thoughts just so they will be please with it? Why are you doing so?


Because you don't have a mind of your own?
Because you're afraid of how people will perceive you?
Because you care too much for the ones you love?
Because you fear you'll lose those around you?
Or because you simply wanna avoid disputes or any awkward silences & moments that may cause harm to the relationship with everyone?


Isn't this tiring? How long can this go on? When you realise it, are you able to change? How do you do so when things won't get any better? But what if you remain like how you have always been, everything will stay and everyone will be happy, will you still bother changing?

This is such typical situation that happens everywhere. I see it happening.
Happening to my family, my friends, and myself. Most of the time I'll just put that at the back of my head and forget about it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I wonder how the others are able to cope. Oh well, can't help but to be pessimistic when things like this cross my mind.

I REALISED I'VE WRITTEN AN ENTRY BUT FORGOTTEN TO PUBLISH IT!

SO ... IT'S PUBLISHED NOW!

BET YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO FIGURE WHICH POST IT IS.

CLUE: IT'S DATED QUITE SOME TIME BACK.

HAHA